Birthday in approximately 2 hours.

So like the title says, my birthday is in another 2 hours. I was born on 18th of July 1989. Finally I am 22 years old.

Two Decades and Two years old. Its so weird how fast time passes. These 21 years have been ..... a whole lot more than I can ever describe in one word. There is still so much to do and see. I still feel like my life has not started, you know what I mean?? How can that even be, technically speaking it already has began so its not like it has to eventually start at any particular time. As it started when I was born.

So what am I waiting, its so weird. I am legally allowed to get married, vote, have a kid whatever. And yet I am so scared. Why the hell is it so??? I have no reason as to why I have allowed myself to be in this slump.

Things that have happened that sucked at age 21:

- Friends lied and screwed me over.

- Have not the best of friends

- Scared to get close to people because of the above

- Classes have been not so great

- No idea what to do with my life.

Good things that have happened at age 21:

- Can officially go out and buy my own drink

- Feel more confident

- Getting into shape, looking awesome now.

Things to do before I graduate college:

(http://collegecandy.com/2010/08/03/25-things-to-do-before-youre-25/)

1. Make out with a gorgeous guy..

2. Do an illegal drug OR Get a tattoo.

3. Live in another country (even if it’s just for a short period of time). Already doing that.

4. Travel on the cheap. Pick a destination and do it up, backpacking-style. Stay in hostels, eat unidentifiable food, and make sure to have anti-diarrhea medicine on hand.

5. Face a fear. A real one. should be a legitimate one.

6. Be brave, bold and do something you would never do.

7. Splurge on an awesome pair of jeans that fit you really well.

8. Apologize to someone you were mean to in middle school. Or anyone else.

9. Make a real guy friend.

10. Get a job working with food or working with clothes. Done customer service and know how hard it is.

11. Figure out what kind of wine you actually like. Go on a wine tour.

12. Take a roadtrip with your friends. .

13. Try an exotic food you can’t pronounce.

14. Go to a college football game and go all out. Paint your face, lose your voice from cheering, and tailgate like a rockstar.

15. See a Broadway show. Even the most cynical people leave a show happy.

16. Go 24 hours media-free. That means turn off your cell phone and shut down your computer. With the exception of getting tagged in heinous photos that you can’t de-tag right away, you won’t miss anything.

17. Skinny dip.

18. Give back to the community. Whether it’s building houses for Habitat for Humanity, participating in a campus Relay for Life, or standing for days on end for a Dance Marathon, you’ll have an awesome time and feel really, really good about yourself. After a 12 hour nap, of course.

19. Learn to do your own taxes and how to manage your own money. It will make that transition into real life so. much. easier.

20. Take your parents out to a nice dinner. Because they deserve it.

21. Start a blog about your life and update it regularly. Sure it seems self-centered now, but you’ll be grateful ten years from now when you can reflect on your life when you were really living it up.

22. Go to a Pride Parade. There is nothing on earth as fun, happy and memorable than a parade dedicated to gay pride.

23. Go to Vegas and let go. Party hard, then party harder. Then hit up an all-you-can-eat buffet to sober up…so you can party again.

24. Learn to drive a manual car. They’re cheaper and, really, it’s just a cool party trick. Plus, from what we hear, it’s a major turn-on for guys.

25. Donate blood. If you think donating is scary, imagine being the person who needs it during a blood shortage. And if that’s not enough, there are cookies.

26. One for good luck. try and actually bake, cause I know you want to.

xoxoxo past me. <3