Who i dare to be !!!!

I always wonder who I am and what my purpose is for life. In this world which is constantly trying to change you and mold you into the way they seem to think is right or correct, I don't why people are so scared of anything and anyone different. I think it's an accomplishment to be "you"  in this world. And another thing people are scared of is to be vulnerable, and to give into the ones they love. I guess that is still understandable because they don't want to be taken for advantage. We are all so scared of the things such as money, our material possessions such as house, car, cell phones, gadgets. In some way or the other we are scared to take a chance, to live a little, we always have some pertinent issues constantly revolving in our heads. And I guess thats why people get into drugs and alcohol. It's is their form of escape from this overbearing world.

Sometimes we take way to many precautions and are always so carefully trying to scrutinize each and everything (because we always thing that their is someone out get us). But all these things steal our energy and keep us from doing the things we really want to do.

But then again I too am a part of this charade. Why are we all so scared to just be?

We are all constantly trying to find some form of means to "be" or get our faith back in humanity and people, somehow we are always let down. But by the end of the day we look for people to look forward to, to just be with us and accept us for who we really are. 

So people try to someone's relaxing person, give someone you love who needs that reassurance that everything is going to be okay. And that all good things take some time. 

take care and have fun !!!

03-21-2009

OKay so this is my first ever time in writing a blog. I mean i do write notes on fb and all but never ever written  a blog. so let me start by telling you a little about me. I am currently a student in a university and this is my second semester and i am studying business administration. But i think i am going to change my major coz i dont think the corporate world is for me. And i suck at accounting and finance which are kinda the most important subjects in business but then again i think its to early to judge, i may like it!!! i guess

I had never ever thought of being a business women or getting into this field ever, i dont know why im actually even doing it in the first place. I had always thought i would be a vet or doctor because i always wanted to help others and all. then i went into the phase of being an interior decorator which was the longest i have ever had.

OHh before i forget i would like to even post one of the poems i have on my facebook account. I hope someone likes it and it helps you in any way possible. 

When all about you is black with gloom

And all you feel is pending doom

When your bones are racked with grim despair

When every breathe is a gasp for air

keep on going, though you need to grope 

For around the bend is a ray of hope.

A ray of hope is perhaps all that's left,

as your will to live has been bereft

You've lost it all, it's just no use!

you can end it all you need no excuse

But throw away that piece of rope,

And give yourself a chance of hope.

Just give yourself another day,

Brushing aside what your thoughts may say.

This is your life and you can make a new start,

By ignoring the brain- just follow the heart.

taking baby steps in order to cope,

And minute by minute you'll build on your hope.

Build on your hope, one day at a time

Though the road be steep and hard to climb 

The hurts of the past -they should be dead.

the fears of the future are all in your head.

Just live in the present and refuse to mope 

Your life will sparkle for you're living in hope.

   till next time take care and have fun !!!